Dreams and doubts...

I've never seen that shade of blue
in my afternoons
I've never seen the moon so huge
in my nights
I've never seen so many stars
in my sky
I've never been so cold
in my life

Icy fingers, warmed by your hands
Dancing flames, lighting my cigarette
A helping hand, to climb the rocks
A reassuring hug, to sooth ruffled feathers
Holding hands, laughing together
Watching movies, taking pictures
Saying goodbye, one last hug
Each step heavier than the last
Tears fall, pain in my heart,
Knowing, knowing that it will never be.

I've fallen in love with the mountains
I've fallen in love with the stars
I've fallen in love with this little town
One question I have yet to answer:
Have I fallen in love with you?

My heart says no,
yet it cries when I leave
My heart says no,
yet my hands sought yours
My heart says no,
yet I miss you so
My heart says no,
yet it hurts when I have to let go

What can I do?

I can't forget, I will not
I can't hope, I dare not
Even in dreams, I run away from you
Even in dreams, I hide from you
I know too much, and knowledge hurts
But it's impossible to forget the emotions
The memories are too precious
Laughter shared,
And tears shed
the hazy uncertainties
of the fragile web

The heart still yearns and I dream,
I dream of things that will never be...





Author's note: First written on 27 October '04. The final version that you see here is edited right before posting, but retains most of its original verses, except for extensive changes in the last half of the 6th paragraph.

Little steps

A little step, just one
Brings you out from the deepest dungeon
A little step, and another two,
Takes you to the farthest shore

If you would take another step,
Or two or three or more,
Perhaps all those little, little steps,
Will cross the ocean floor

And when you're right in front of me,
Perhaps you'd take one more,
and then we'll find that all those little steps,
Were not so little after all.


Author's note: Written sometime in 2002, inspired by poems written for me by someone else. It's a relatively simple piece, as I was still stretching experimenting with different styles, but I've never really been one for rhymes in poetry. At least not when I'm writing them. I think I should credit this muse of mine for broadening my horizons and start writing poetry again.